Priorities.

Somehow I have found myself in another spot where I am not quite sure what to place first in my life. Short of God being first, it seems I still have quite a way to really figure out what that means and put that into action in my life.

If you know me, I'm a "yes" guy. I have a hard time saying no to people, especially people that ask me for help. Something I've been working on for a long time is making sure that I have time for myself and that I don't over commit to things that I simply cannot commit to. Unfortunately, the more situations and scenarios that I put myself in, the more questions seem to arise. What is the "right" thing to do? This always seems to be the question. How much value should I really put into my school work? How much time should I put into my personal relationships, rather than those that I am involved with in clubs/activities/ministries? How much, basically, is enough? In fact, is anything enough?

Questions. A lot of questions that, for one reason or another, I seem to have settled with not knowing the answers to.

I am in the process of building a character that is in complete abandonment for the Gospel. For His Kingdom. But what does that MEAN? What does love mean? Oh, love. Love seems to simple... but for us, it can easily become so complex. Because we simply cannot love everything; fully loving even more than one person is probably difficult. I can love God; okay. He's everywhere and is with me all the time. But is it really capable to fully, fully love our neighbors? Our brothers and sisters?

Love... is full of action. And action seems to be what is often in question for my life. For the most part, I think that my heart and motives are in the right place; is that enough? I wish I had more time, more energy, more heart-space, more faith, to simply... love more people.

What actions, which people, which communities, come first? What is God calling me to do? What is more glorifying to Him? Will I ever really, truly completely live a selfless life?

Many seem to be quite lofty, yet strangely applicable, questions. Questions, questions, questions.