gray. (grey?)

I wish there were more things in life that were black and white. Or, it were easier to see things as black and white, right and wrong... I feel like even if doing the "right" thing was really, really hard, I'd be okay doing it, because I would know for sure that it was the right thing. But more often than not it seems like putting a lot of energy and effort into the "right" thing isn't a sure-fire way to do the right thing.

But I'm not just talking about right and wrong. Like, finding this thing we like to call "balance" in my life; balance between school and friends, between prayer and time with people, balance between the present and the future. Like, if we don't live in the moment, we'll never really get a chance to live... but if we don't plan for the future, we might not have one. Or, I really need to study and take care of myself, but other people need my help with these certain things and I should really be trying to actively love them.

And the answer to a lot of these things and qualms seems to be to go back to the prayer times with God and ask for some discernment. A lot of answers come from a simple shift in perspective, prioritizing certain heart motives over others. Sometimes this seems to subjective... but then again, I guess in a way, everything is.

On second thought, even if things were more black and white, I think I would have a hard time believing what was what. Being human, I feel like I naturally have a hard time believing things that are absolute, regardless of what they are. Even if I am convicted of my own beliefs and think I have strong evidence for something, a little inkling in me will be wondering, "what if?" Or, because I know that even if things are black/white from my perspective, they become 'grayed' (if you will) by the opinion of others, nothing is really, black and white... or very little is.