Why can't (some things in) life be more simple?

I think we like to make things complicated. Or, we like to think that we are forced to make things complicated. But often they aren't.

Strangely, I found myself sitting in a car with two good friends listening to classical music earlier tonight. Since leaving home for college two years ago, my friends at home have changed a lot... some friendships, strangely, seemed to have strengthened, while others (very sadly) seemed to vanish. And I can't really tell you why, nor can I say that it's really possible to hold onto every relationship that I've had...

But even after months and months apart, most of what the three of us did was just sit there. We parked at the local field, turned the engine off, and just sat there. We talked here and there, but mostly just sat and listened to classical music together. It was not what I expected to be doing in my four days at home.

I think one thing that language does is it creates this medium that we think we need to interact through. Like we have to use words to get to know each other and have a good time, and we need words to express ourselves or tell people who we are. Maybe in part we do, but I know that largely in part, we don't.

Words are nice and all, but I'm starting to think more and more that they only give us barriers to hide and duck behind instead of showing our true selves. It's great to have nice, deeps talks with people, but maybe we need to learn to treasure the silences too.




[insert silence here.]