Writing

So I told myself (and a few other people) that I would try to write more in this blog, because I thought it was good for me, both in helping my personal thought process and pushing my writing... skills? (since my classes don't really do that right now).

But without explicit stuff to write about this seems kind of hard. I feel like a lot of writing, or art/expression, in general, is making the mundane and boring seem exciting and beautiful. Which they are. But when we look at things through the same lens day to day, things start to seem the same, day after day. And yea, sometimes they are, but then we don't really get to see the beauty and complexity of the world around us.

I also feel like I repeat myself a lot. Like this sentence, me saying that I repeat myself a lot, is something that I feel like I repeat a lot. And similarly, I feel like I often go back to this vague ideas like, life being complicated and crazy, or God's grace being so amazing in my life. Either my thoughts are stuck in some weird cycle or circle that I have a hard time getting out of, or my life can pretty much be summarized by those things.

I'm also afraid of writing stuff that sucks. Or that I think sucks. I guess anything "artistic" or "personal" is weird like that. Because we're supposed to write, or draw, or make music, that comes from something that's more natural or heartfelt, but society often picks apart the little details in everything, making these things something that is refined and carefully, mindfully created. So, hopefully I'll move into some area where I can learn to write more freely and will be able to challenge my own thinking with this.